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After tonight's episode of 'Gilmore Girls', during the teaser for next week's episode, they announced that it would be the SERIES FINALE.  Whaaaaaaaaaaaaaaat?!?

I cried like a baby.... & I'm tearing up now just typing about it.

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[	music	|	Well, now I'm singing 'The Young Ones' themesong.	]

1. My username is indecisive_twit because I feel it describes me perfectly.
2. My journal is titled The superfluous meanderings of an indecisive twit because I tend to ramble on about absolutely meaningless garbage & feel that it is all very important.
3. My subtitle is non-existent.
4. My friends page is called HANDS UP WHO LIKES ME!!  because it is one of my favorite lines from a fabulous British comedy show called 'The Young Ones' spoken by my favorite character on the show, Rick, played by Ric Mayall.  Being his insecure self, they were all sitting around the table & he just hollered that out & raised both his hands, & the other guys threw their hands down toward the ground.  It was awesome.
5. My default userpic is Mr. Hankey hopping around smearing poo on his little catch phrase because it's Christmas & I'm feeling festive. ;oP

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[	music	|	Not Coming Home ~ Maroon 5	]

My big boy lost his first tooth today! Here he is in all his incredible adorableness.

He's so excited about it.  He can't wait to get to school in the morning & show it off to all his friends (even though most of them have already lost some of theirs, but he could care less!)  He keeps looking at himself in the mirror & going "I JUST LOVE IT!  I'm SO excited my tooth is gone!"  Cutest.  Thing.  Ever.  Of course in my crazy-insane hormonal state I got all weepy when it happened.  I'm just a mess.

Still nursing a sinus infection...NO FUN.  This gas heat is KILLING ME.  My sinuses AND my skin. YUCK.

Tomorrow's appointment will consist of getting checked again (woo hoo) & (please Lord) hopefully discussing baby eviction.  That would rock SO HARD.  I would love to have him on my girlfriend Carie's birthday, which is Friday, but I don't think he'd induce that early.  I am praying for the full moon thing to go in my favor (full moon is Thursday, but anytime around there would make me so happy!)

For those of you who didn't catch my stupid post in Testing, I have this friend, who had a tubal pregnancy when we were both around 7 weeks along that almost killed her.  She has 2 little girls under 4 & says she's just fine with the 2 of them & absolutely insists that she is NEVER having ANY more children EVER again & has been very adamant about it every day since she got home from the hospital.  I completely understand that everyone is entitled to change their minds, but I mentioned the other day that Brian mentioned the name Aidan which is a name she mentioned to me when she found out she was pregnant. I went on to say this is what he wants to name the baby, he came up with it (which has been like pulling teeth, getting him to contribute, I mean) & I like it too so I'm not disagreeing with him. Well, she says that she's claimed the name Aidan for the child that she lost (note: she did not know what the sex was, she had just found out she was pregnant like, 2 weeks before it happened) as well as any future children they may or may not ever have that may or very well may not be a boy.  Now she is all in tizzy & I'm sorry that she is, but I have gotten to the point where I feel this whole thing is rediculous & just want to name the baby whatever the hell I feel like naming him, drama free.  So, we've decided that Aidan is one of our favorites in a very short list of names that we love & what we're going to do is wait until he comes out, hang out with him a bit & decide what we think he needs to be called.  If it happens to be Aidan that that's what he's going to be named & my friend will just have to deal. If she doesn't deal, I will miss her, but I will not regret naming our child what we want to name him.  If she wants to name whatever child she may or may not have in the future, Aidan, then by all means I want her to do so!

I am going to bed now as I can barely keep my eyes open!  Nighty night! 

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[	music	|	Blackbird ~ The Beatles	]

So, one of my very best friends, Kara (my ex-sister-in-law) & her family moved away, way far away, to Virginia (10 hours from here) just last Thursday. Her husband got a kick-ass position within the company he works & they just up & shipped them the fuck out.  Z & I have been very sad about it.  I miss them terribly.  I had finally gotten to the point where I could think & talk about it & not burst instantly into tears & she called me today & it made me sad all over again.  It's WEIRD them not being here.  That's all I have to say about that. *sniff*

Today was my 36-week checkup.  I am officially at term, which just means the baby is pretty much as developed as he's going to get & he is just fattening up at this point.  I could safely have him at any time & he wouldn't be considered premature.  BUT....there's always a big but....having been checked today, there has been no progress toward him coming ANY TIME SOON.  I have been having CRAZY braxton hicks contractions for weeks now, so strong at times they take my breath clean away, & NOTHING has come from them.  I have to say that I was a little disheartened, but it also just made me realize I need to be resting & napping & whatnot while I can in preparation for this little guy.  He's so very wearing me out.  Hopefully, at my appointment next week (I'm down to weekly appointments now....YAY!) he'll have moved down some I'll have dialated some & we can start talking induction date...W00T!  The doc doesn't want to be delivering me at Christmas time & quite frankly neither do I.  Say a prayer....if you're into that sort of thing.  Think: Progression....PROGRESSION.

My next-door-neighbor/ good friend Cindy & I went to FINALLY see the new Harry Potter flick this evening.  It was pretty intense & very entertaining....but I feel like it was so anticlimactic.  I realize they did that to leave doors open for the next film but I don't know....I just can't describe it.  AND & I feel like a dirty old woman.  You know those scenes on television & in the movies where the person is in the fetal position in the shower scrubbing & crying because they feel unclean?  Yeah, that's me.  I kept catching myself going "Oooooo!" & "Ooooh my!"  Somebody please slap me!

I've been up since 3:45 AM.  I'm going to go crash now.  Kisses y'all.

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Ok, so we all know how badly I suck at updating this thing....so very sorry....I suck big time.....yadda, yadda, yadda.

Well, I'm officially house-sized.  And I have a little over a month to go!  Actually, I've only gained 26 pounds this time around, of which I'm very proud (& my doc seems to be too!)  That's literally half what I gained with Z y'all....HALF!!!  Everyone keeps telling me how good I look, everyone except people who DON'T ACTUALLY KNOW ME, that is.  They all seem to FREAK OUT (complete with gaping mouth & gasps of disbelief) when I tell them how far along I am & think it's perfectly OK to tell a raging-hormonal pregnant stranger how ENORMOUS they think she is & that she HAS to have TWINS in there OH MY GOD!!!

As far as things around the house, I did talk to the hubby & things have gotten better.  It's basically him stressing the hell out at work & bringing it all home with him.  I get that  He's been working 15 hour days, 7 days a week & he's exhausted.   And the shit at the office is hitting the fan today.  He's printed up the numbers & is letting loserboy know that this is his last chance to do what he needs to do & actually EARN the salary he makes or he'll need to fire someone (someone NOT one of the boys actually MAKING the company money!) & hire someone productive.   It must be really nice to sit around & on your ass & play computer games all day & get a big fat check for it every 2 weeks, while your partner works himself literally sick to pay the bills & keep the business going.  That fucker.

My bestest girlfriends of about 20 years (damn I'm old) threw a shower for me this past weekend & I got all kinds of awesome sheeit.  I also got a bunch of crap I really didn't need, took it back & got TONS of schtuff I did need!  It rocked so hard.  I have rearranged Z's room & set up the crib in there so that's done.  I set up the pack 'n' play (kind of a playpen if you will, for those of you NOT in the know) in my room next to my bed.  Mine has a bassinet/changing table feature so he'll be right next to me at first. Don't know how long that'll last. 

( I feel I've reached my apex & I've just got to spill over...WARNING...kinda long. )

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[	music	|	Beautiful Boy ~ John Lennon	]

You'll always be this young & beautiful... 

You've brought so much happiness to my life.  God bless you.

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[	music	|	Pictures of You ~ The Cure	]

I just realized it's been a fucking MONTH since I've updated this thing.  I'm a bad, baaad blogger.  Spank me.

We had such a great time at Dragon*Con.  It was VERY memorable.  Joss, Summer AND Nathan all dumped us, but it was still great.  We met Mercedes McNab on Friday morning & then got to hang out with her Friday night.  It was weird how it all came about.  We were people watching Friday morning by the escalators, drinking our lattes, & we saw her walking around like a lost puppy, literally lost.  We knew she was probably on her way to the walk of fame (where all the pretty people sit in a bunch of rows for hours & hours to sign autographs & take pictures with fans) as she was lugging a BIG ol' box of her glossies with an iced latte wobbling around on top. We watched her wander around for a second, then go down the stairs & then come back up the escalator so we ran to her rescue.  We were all "are you trying to find the walk of fame?" & she was all "YES! AAARGH!" so we cleared a path like a couple of bouncers & got her down there.  She was very greatful.  Later that evening, we went to this sportsbar to get a bite & sit down for a bit.  Well, we stopped off at the bathroom first & who walks in but Ms. McNab.  She's "a little tipsy" [wink] & is all "MY BEST FRIENDS!!! YOU SAVED MY LIFE!!! I LOVE YOU SO MUCH!!!  LET ME BUY YOU DRINKS!!!"  We were like, 'you really don't have to, we just saw you were lost & wanted to help you.'  She insisted, so we went & sat with her, Froggy (her keeper) & another guy (who I think was someone else's keeper there that weekend.)  I'm not going to get into the details, but there were MANY shots had by everyone except me, karaoke (both great & not so great), dancing & then carrying of people to their hotel rooms.  It was INSANE...but fun!  The rest of the weekend was pretty uneventful but LOADS of fun.  There are some pictures posted on our website... www.gallutia.com.

I can't believe only 3 more days until 'SERENITY' opens!  I can't freakin' stand it!!!

I'm getting SOOO big!  I only have 12 weeks & some change to go.  It's gone by so fast.

I've been such a bad friend, not getting online & chatting with those I love.  Gus, I'm sorry I missed out on all your goings on.  Congrats on your new job!  We really need to catch up!  I miss you so much.

I have been informed by 2 of my loved ones within the past month that they have breast cancer.  Fucking cancer.  I wish I could punch cancer.  I would beat the shit out of it if I could & kick it in it's nuts.

Well I have to go start dinner & stuff.  Hope everyone is well!

KISSES!

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[	music	|	Plainsong ~ The Cure	]

So, my internet's been going in & out all evening.  I start freaking out because I've been watching this book on ebay for my husband for about 4 days now, a signed ('COME GET SOME!' How effin' cool is that?) mint copy of Make Love the Bruce Campbell Way, by who else but the absolutely delicious Bruce Campbell.  So I'm getting all nervous right, because I don't want to miss my chance to get this for him.  My husband comes upstairs & I'm all "is the internet going to be doing this shit all night?  Because I'm watching something very special for you on ebay that's ending in like, an hour!"  He's all "what is it?"  And I tell him what it is.  He then says, & very nonchalantly I might add (GET THIS SHIT) "why would you do that when HE'S GOING TO BE AT BARNES & NOBLE TOMORROW AT FIVE O'CLOCK."  Umm.....wtf did you just say?  I was like "I KNOW you did not just say that Bruce effing Campbell is going to be at the B&N, right up the street, signing books tomorrow at 5 o'clock."  And he was like "Yup." 

So.....GUESS WHO I GET TO MEET TOMORROW AT 5 O'FREAKIN' CLOCK!?!  AAAAAACK!  I of course called Stacey immediately & she was all excited too, so I'm relieved that I won't be going alone.

I simply can't stand it...& I won't be sleeping well tonight either.  I promise I'll be chill & be all quiet & shy when it comes time to meet him. I freeze up when I meet famous people, not sure why.  I think it's because I'm afraid I'll say something stupid or maybe throw up.  But until that time, I'M GOING TOTAL GIGGLY, SQUEEEELY FANGIRL ON YOUR ASSES!!!  WHEEEEE!!!

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[	music	|	Honey Pie ~ The Beatles	]

Here's a picture of my littlest boy...

& here's a picture of my big boy yesterday, getting ready to leave for his first day of kindergarten...

Man that was tough! I lost it walking into the school.  I had to stay behind he & B while they walked in so I could get my shit together.  I was so proud of him though, he didn't even blink an eye.  He just marched right in there, said good morning to his teacher & hugged her, sat in his seat & started visiting with the new friends around him.  I cried alot after I left him, but I was pretty proud of myself for at least waiting 'til I kissed him goodbye & turned around to leave.  I did turn back around once to see this & took a quick picture...

He just dove right in.  His teacher is really nice & he's going to have lots of fun.  My big boy.

I'm so tired, I have to go to bed.  Gotta get up early, get the boy off to school, clean my house up, run back to school to pick up my boy, then go the funeral of an ex-boyfriend's younger brother.  That's going to SUCK.  I mean REALLY.

Kisses babies.

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I'm just so happy!  Boys are just AWESOME!  I already have all the boy shit & I can't wait to buy bunk beds!  I think alot of people were all disappointed for me, thinking I had my heart set on a girl or something, but quite honestly, I secretly prayed for another boy.

 Well, I'm going to bed! I'm exhausted after long afternoon of running all over the place, being all giddy, dr's appointments & being on the phone non-stop.  

Kisses!!

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Loooookie what I did!

Z loves it, but his dad is going to have cats!  I think it needs to be narrower, don't you?  I wanted him to have one before he started school (in 2 weeks...waaah!) because I'm pretty sure he won't be allowed to have it.  I really don't know policy on that sort of thing.

Anyhoo, I just wanted to share.  My baby's huuuungry, that, or it's choreographing a routine for STOMP.

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Hiya!  Been a while & I just needed to empty my brain! 

First off, we'll (hopefully) be finding out the sex of this baby next Monday!  Too exciting!  I have no idea (not even a feeling) what this baby might be.  So many people have asked me & I just don't even know!  What I DO know is that it sure has been moving around alot the past 2 weeks & I'm also getting quite large.  Woo hoo.  It's harder for me to do things too.  Like, bend over to tie my shoes, or paint my toes, stand up, go up stairs...etc...  I'd forgotten how much fun pregnancy was!  I also get asked what would I like to have, & I know this is  totally cliché, but after what we went through with Z, I seriously just want a healthy baby I can hold as soon as it's born & take home from the hospital when I leave. I honestly don't care what it is!    

Second, Dragon*Con is exactly 30 days away & we just found out yesterday that Joss has suddenly decided that he knew nothing about being a confirmed, scheduled guest & isn't coming.  Bigger & better things to do, I guess.  Although we're going to have a fabulous time with or without him there, it's definitely a bummer.  I was really looking forward to meeting him.

Thirdly, I'm soooooo..... very sad about QAF ending.  ( Whining about QAF. NO SPOILERS. )

My folks & my brother's visit all-in-all was quite pleasant.  My mother & I hit an all-time record though,  as it only took 2 days (instead of the usual 3) for us to be on each other's last nerve.  ( Bitching about my mother. )

ANYWAY, my brother  is back in Afghanistan now.  It took him a week to get there.  I was starting to get kinda worried, but he e-mailed me yesterday & assured me everything was fine & all was like he'd never even left.  Isn't that just great?  *sigh*

Well, I guess that's enough whining & bitching for now, don't you think?  I hope you all are well (those of you who still have my loser ass on your f'list, anyway!)

KISSES!!!

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[	music	|	Just Like Heaven ~ The Cure	]

So here in Brentwood, just south of Nashville, we have this giant, ugly-ass statue of Nathan Bedford Forrest on the side of I-65N.  It's been there for several years now & I hhhaaaate it.  I mean I DESPISE this statue.  Whenever I drive by it, I clench my teeth & glare in it's general direction, most times cursing under my breath like Yosemite Sam.  My husband brought it up for whatever reason this evening & we got into a big fat arguement.  I can't even talk about the statue without getting pissy.  Anyway, he feels I am ignorant about this man, & that I have formed an uneducated opinion about him, which I absolutely have NOT.  I've read plenty about him, from several different sources, & I simply do not feel that a statues should be erected in this man's honor!  Period.  Ok, so the man was a great Civil War hero that never lost a battle.  Woo. Hoo.  The man was ALSO the Grand Wizard of the Ku Klux Klan, which granted, was not originally founded as the inconceivably violent organization of despicable monsters it became, but was a group of intolerant, white supremacist hate-mongers all the same & it just makes me want to vomit. 

Oh.  And my husband's "education" about him consists of listening to the opinions of an ultra-conservative talk radio show host.  Niiiice.

I won an AWESOME old Cure concert shirt on ebay the other night for next to nothing & I cannot wait to get it!!!  YAAAAY! 

OH!!!  I'm taking the boy to Tony Hawk's Boom Boom Huck Jam this weekend at the GEC.  YAAAAY for cute boys doing crazy shit on skateboards, bikes & motorcycles!  WHEEEEE! 

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I got a phone call a week ago from my father-in-law informing me that my niece’s mother committed suicide, via shooting herself in the stomach.  This is the same teen-aged niece that I've talked about before who shared a nasty case of pink eye with my baby a while back.  She also has a 7-year-old son she left behind.  Damn it.

Never in my life have I ever actually known someone to kill themselves.  I mean, I’ve known someone who knew someone, but never anyone I’ve had direct contact with & emotional ties to.  It's just all so strange a concept for me.  What on earth could be so bad that the best option you can think of is to take your own life & leave 2 babies without a mommy?

I’ve been going through so many different emotions about this.  Anger: that she would choose to leave her babies with no mommy.  Sadness: that she felt so hopeless & lonely, even with all the people around her who love her & wanted to help her, that she had to do something like this.  Extreme sadness: for her babies who now have no mommy.  Extreme guilt: that I was just sitting in her floor with her a week before the incidence, trying to get her to talk to me about how she’s been feeling & what’s been going on (she was bi-polar & trying to get her meds straightened out & having a hard time) & she totally lied to me & told me that everything was fine, even when I KNEW that it wasn’t, having already discussed how things had been going with my niece while she was staying with us, apparently trying to get away from the domestic altercations that had grown increasingly worse the past few weeks, sometimes even violent.  Sorry for the run-on.

I’ll only briefly touch upon the whole mess of her mother’s family threatening to sue Jordan's father (my husband’s brother) for full custody.  See, they divorced years & years ago  (like when Jordan was 2 maybe?) & the agreement was joint custody.  So, now that her mother is dead, the natural progression of things (you would think) would be for her to go live with her biological father, who loves her & wants her, right?   Right.  Well, apparently her mother’s family feels that’s not the best thing for her (meaning: that’s not what THEY want) so they’re going to fight over her.  It’s the ugliest mess I’ve ever seen & it breaks my heart that she (& my brother & sister-in-law) has to go through it.

It’s been a really weird week.

In other news, I’m getting fat (ter.) Yay.  And the baby is doing just fine.  Heart's just beating away.  We have about 6 more weeks, & then we can find out what the sex is!  Everyone is insisting that it's a girl.  Lord help us if it is.

I totally accidentally happened upon an effing spoiler about 'Serenity' on the Browncoat board yesterday DAMN IT!  I could just spit. GRRRR!

That’s all for now, I suppose.  Kisses ya'll.

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[	music	|	Into the Trees ~ The Cure	]

The weather has been SO gorgeous here.  Tennessee really can be a beautiful place.

( Incubation update...a little TMI maybe. )

Stacey got our Dragon*Con passes today!  YAAAAAAAY!!!  I'm so excited I can hardly stand it!

I'm actually going to finally have this fecking yard sale this weekend.  I can't wait to get all these piles of shit from storage out of my floor!

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The buttheads at HBO, who got me all addicted to their show, decided not to re-up Carnivàle for a third season. This seriously makes me want to cry!!!  I was really exicted to see what they were going to do next!  I am thankful though, that Showtime is continuing Huff as it ended all crazy-like & am SO ready for more!  I've got a while to wait yet. 

Stacey ordered our memberships this week for Dragon*Con in September... WHEEEEEE!!!  We get to meet Joss & the Serenity cast!!!  We got to meet Nathan *drool* Jewel & Adam last year & now almost the whole crew will be there!!!  OMGIGETTOMEETJOSSFRIGGINWHEDONAAACK!!!!!  *faints*

SW:RoTS comes out in a week!!! IIIIIIIIEEEEEEE!!!  Thing is, my boy is also very excited about seeing it & I'm afraid it's going to be too oogy for him.  Any of ya'll know anything at all about the content?  I don't know why Lucas would be whoring to children (My GOD have you SEEN all the merchandise?) if they couldn't see the movie, but we all know how evil! he is so.....